I’m struggling lately with knowing what to post about.
I’d love to post about the amazing Quantum Healer I spoke with on Monday evening, but it’s so bizarre and out there and hard to explain that I don’t know where to begin. I’m trying to wrap my head around putting a post together about it. We’ll see. It was amazing though. Amazing. Thank you, Mom, for recommending him. He has brought more peace into my soul than I have felt in years.
I’ve thought about posting about how this cycle is going, but so far I don’t really know. I’m on CD13. Had an odd spike up this morning (just 2/10 of a degree) but I woke up really hot, so that’s probably all it was. Did my first OPK of the cycle and it was negative. I have no idea how long this will take me to ovulate this cycle without Clomid. Pretty nervous about it actually – is my body still broken? What has it figured out how to do on its own? Was it a good idea to try this “naturally” for a cycle? It’s ironic to me that this is actually the most $$ out of pocket I’ve spent on a cycle since we started. Clomid was only about $20/cycle (unmonitored) so acupuncture & herbs (not covered by insurance) is by far more expensive. Gotta love that my insurance doesn’t cover “alternative medicine.” *sigh* Also, I’m almost out of OPKs again – where is the best (cheap but still sensitive) place to buy tests?
I want to mention that I’m super sad for my friend Amanda @ Our Fertility Journey. She got a BFN this morning, and my heart just hurts for her. She’s been TTC for nearly two years now and this is only the 3rd time she’s ovulated. I know how hard it is to not only want a child, but to also have troubles even ovulating to TRY for that child. I hate that any of us have to experience the sadness that goes along with IF and BFNs.
I’m stoked to tell you all about my exciting upcoming weekend. We’ve just been asked to be “secret shoppers” at the new brewpub bar & restaurant in the next town over (yay – free date night!), we’re going golfing tomorrow and then hanging out with my BFF and her baby who just turned 6w old today, we’re going to the Labor Day rodeo & Fireman’s Ball (a street dance) on Sunday, and we’re probably golfing with my father-in-law on Monday. I love long weekends like that – where we’re doing tons of fun stuff, but still staying around home.
I am going to tell you again how freakin excited I am to get my new camera. It should be here in time for BBS (though I won’t know how to use it yet) and that excites me beyond belief. I’m still waiting on a meeting with my current bosses to go over my 2 year review + proposal for changes to my salary and such (which was supposed to happen Wednesday but still hasn’t – don’t even get me started on that!), but I really have no idea how that’s going to go. Eventually I would love to get more into photography – whether it’s for a full time job or supplemental income, I don’t know, but just the opportunity to take lovely photos with a wonderful camera excites me. 🙂
Finally, I’d like to wish you all a wonderful holiday weekend. May your time be spent with family and friends, whatever you’re doing.
Thank you all for being a part of my journey. You have no idea how blessed I feel to know you all…