Day 03 → a photo that makes you happy.
Okay…this photo is tied into part #2 unfortunately. A few weeks ago my husband unintentionally screwed up and I might have blown my fucking lid overreacted about it. It was while my parents were in town visiting, and this was the day we spent hours just driving around and looking at fall colors. On this pretty little road we stopped to get a few pics, and we thought it might be a nice place to get a quick Christmas picture. The problem – I was still pissed off and barely speaking to C. Still, I agreed to the photo shoot b/c I really did want a picture of us, until my Dad (who is standing to the side of my Mom who is taking the picture) says something along the lines of “why don’t you pretend you like your husband and give him a kiss.” Can you tell how funny C thought that was? 🙂 I love that about him. His forgiveness. His ability to see the worst side of me and always move on and forgive me, no grudge held. That’s why that picture makes me happy, b/c even though I’d been giving him the silent treatment for 3 hours, this was his reaction. He’s a good man.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Anyway, on to part #2. Something I have to forgive myself for. Ugh. I’ve gone back and forth on this because it involves my husband and I don’t like writing about him very much on here. He’s a private person and does not like me sharing details about our lives on the www. However, suffice it to say that I was young and foolish and hurt him in an unimaginable way. Since then, he has forgiven me, but I really don’t think I have ever forgiven myself. Sometimes, I feel like I’m destined to be a screw up in my relationships, and I’m petrified that it’s a self-fulfilling prophesy. I don’t want to feel like that anymore. 🙁
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I'm completely digging this "series" that you're doing. there's a ton of these 30 day things but this one is actually really interesting and really fun to read (and I'm sure write). Thinking about doing the same thing! You've inspired me! 🙂
That picture of you two is seriously awesome. Even without the backstory, it's adorable 🙂
It will only be a self-fulfilling prophecy if you let it, dear. But I know you, and I feel like I know him, and I am not worried. 🙂
Love the picture! Too cute!
Love the back story on the picture, love your reaction and love C's laugh! So perfect!Also, we are human. We make mistakes and in order to be forgiven, you have to forgive yourself. Before you do that, you will always wonder what you didn't or are doing to make things better/worse. Don't beat yourself up… things happen that we wish we could take back. But in reality, it did happen and now you just have to focus on the future.You'll be fine, I'm sure.
That picture is so cute – I love his true laugh in it! As far as forgiving yourself, you may never totally forgive and that is just a reminder to you if you ever feel that slide into what you call your "self-fulfilling prophesy" again. Remember how the aftermath was, how hurt you both were and what you stand to lose. You may not forgive yourself 100% but it's a great reminder that you don't want to fulfill that prophesy!
Try to move forward and give up feeling like you'll screw up. You won't. That picture his hilarballs. Love it!
Such a cute picture! The thing that makes me laugh hardest in the world is hearing McMister truly laugh. It's obvious from that story and photo that your husband loves you no matter what.
The picture alone makes me laugh, and the story behind it is great. To find a spouse who is that forgiving is truly rare and is worth…well, lots of diamonds or something.
Love this post. You're not alone in a lot you post about. We all have our 'flipping our lids' moments. It happens. But, our hubbies love us unconditionally and by the grace of them and God, we move on and learn. It's great that yours has a great and forgiving spirit.
i love the pict and the story to go with it.
😀 Love the picture and the story behind it!