Day 03 → a photo that makes you happy.
Okay…this photo is tied into part #2 unfortunately. A few weeks ago my husband unintentionally screwed up and I might have
blown my fucking lid overreacted about it. It was while my parents were in town visiting, and this was the day we spent hours just driving around and looking at fall colors. On this pretty little road we stopped to get a few pics, and we thought it might be a nice place to get a quick Christmas picture. The problem – I was still pissed off and barely speaking to C. Still, I agreed to the photo shoot b/c I really did want a picture of us, until my Dad (who is standing to the side of my Mom who is taking the picture) says something along the lines of “why don’t you pretend you like your husband and give him a kiss.” Can you tell how funny C thought that was? 🙂 I love that about him. His forgiveness. His ability to see the worst side of me and always move on and forgive me, no grudge held. That’s why that picture makes me happy, b/c even though I’d been giving him the silent treatment for 3 hours, this was his reaction. He’s a good man.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Anyway, on to part #2. Something I have to forgive myself for. Ugh. I’ve gone back and forth on this because it involves my husband and I don’t like writing about him very much on here. He’s a private person and does not like me sharing details about our lives on the www. However, suffice it to say that I was young and foolish and hurt him in an unimaginable way. Since then, he has forgiven me, but I really don’t think I have ever forgiven myself. Sometimes, I feel like I’m destined to be a screw up in my relationships, and I’m petrified that it’s a self-fulfilling prophesy. I don’t want to feel like that anymore. 🙁