A Fresh Start – CD1

Thanks to everyone for your supportive comments last night and this morning. Honestly, hearing my phone beep and getting to roll over in my bed of self-pity and read a bit of support here, a virtual hug there… it got me through the night.

I only had light spotting throughout the night last night, so today I’m going to call CD1. I just really don’t want to associate Halloween with that. However, November equals a new dedication to THIS. I’ve been crazy busy with work, and I really need to re-prioritize. I need to talk to my boss about always having at LEAST one day off a week, if not two (7 nights/week is killing me & my marriage). I need to get my Realtor stuff organized, my house organized, my eating/exercise back on track, and I might actually put in my two weeks notice at the church. I’m just overwhelmed with work right now and that needs to stop. I slept for 11 HOURS last night (only waking up at 5:45 to temp). Insane.

I’m also going to take a step back from the blogs. I’m still reading a lot from my BB, and that makes it hard for me to comment. I’m tired of feeling guilty for not being able to comment, so in advance, I’m still following your journeys, even if I’m not commenting as much. I’ll do my best if you’re in a hole like I was last night to step back onto the computer to comment though – the love and support I get from all of you when I truly need it means so much to me, and I wouldn’t want to not return the favor.

So there ya go – my last cycle was 41 days (UGH, long again) with a 12 or 13 day LP (not too bad). I didn’t test my progesterone levels 7dpo this cycle. Life was just too busy, I didn’t feel like paying the $75 out of pocket, I wasn’t sure which day I ovulated on since I missed a temp in there, etc… BUT, at least I did ovulate at some point.

I’m going to stick with just the acupunctures and herbs this cycle. I’m going to try to get more centered in my life. I’m also going to be more thankful for what I have – that’s what November is all about, right?

14 comments

  1. I hope you find some time for yourself and your hubby…you deserve it!

  2. I'm so sorry about AF's arrival. She arrived for me yesterday, too, just hours before the trick-or-treating started. Cruel, right? I hope that taking time away from everything in November can help you gain some peace. It's tough to remain thankful through all of this, and I admire you for stepping back to try and get centered. You are in my thoughts.

  3. I was reading over your weight loss journey on the right column of your blog, and you've got to give yourself more credit! It looks like you started a year ago today and have lost nearly 20 pounds through the year. Not so bad! I read a quote once that was something like, "We've got to stop beating ourselves up for taking three steps forward and two back…after all, that is still one step forward, isn't it?" Good luck with your weight loss and baby-makin journey!

  4. I miss you already.

  5. i'm sorry Jos. I wish it were a different story for you. i hope you get some time off and get to some time with your hubby.

  6. I hope you get two days off a week to enjoy your dh and have some alone time too. I totally get the not commenting hun. Seriously. It was two years of blogging and seeing bfp after bfp and feeling like it was never going to be my turn again. ((HUGS))

  7. Well I am glad you are giving yourself another cycle for the acupuncture and herbs. I really hope you can achieve the realignment of everything. You definitely need to focus on yourself a little bit this cycle. Be sure to spend lots of time with Charlie. Give him lots of hugs and kisses.

  8. You couldn't escape me if you tried. But I see you are trying so I shall stalk you in other more invasive manners just to make sure you know you're loved. Stoopid CD1.

  9. I am so sorry to hear that Halloween was not so fun for you last night. I feel bad I was not on here to offer support. As mad as I get when AF arrives, I am always thankful for CD 1. It is a fresh start and making another attempt at forward progress. I admire you for knowing when to get yourself back to center. Hoping the acupuncture and herbs help you to get to where you want to be. Sending hugs and love.

  10. Sounds like a good plan to take a step back and realize what we're thankful for. I might have to do the same. Thinking of you Josey and hoping for better days.

  11. A hug a day late, sorry I missed blogs yesterday. Some cycles hit us harder than others, don't they? Now, no beating yourself up for the way you feel or for doing what you need to do to to take care! I hope you can get that time off you need!

  12. You're not getting a day off at work?! Holy crap – deal with that ASAP! You need a day or two to recharge! Totally! I hope your break brings you some peace and rest and I hope to see you back on here sooner or later!

  13. Hi! I'm so sorry to hear about AF's arrival. I wish you the very best on your next cycle. I also wanted to thank you for commenting on my blog lately. The comments mean a lot to me, so thank you :).

  14. Please don't feel guilty for not commenting after every post of every blog you follow. This is a very forgiving community! And I think the improved LP is definitely worth celebrating–definitely a sign of progress. I know what a battle those short LPs can be. I'll be hoping you can find some ways to carve out more down time–and hubby time. I really think it's only a matter of time for the two of you before there's a third on the way!

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