Day 16: a photo from your childhood
|I am the oldest of four sisters (little bro was probably an infant when this pic was taken). I cannot even imagine being a Mother to that many children. Thanks for a great childhood Mom. 🙂|
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
This is such a multi-faceted issue for me. My insecurity about everything in life lately is causing a lot of heartache and pain lately, both in my life and in my marriage. I don’t want to go too deeply into it online at this point, but suffice it to say that insecurity about everything from my body’s seeming inability to conceive and bear a child (DAMN YOU INFERTILITY) to my choices/options regarding my career and life path is “causing” (or I’m allowing it to cause) depression, eating issues (binging/purging) and drinking issues Basically, lately I I deal with everything the wrong way and I feel like every choice I make will never be the right one. I feel so fucking lost. I’m writing this calmly now, but I assure you I was nothing like this as I bawled for 5 hours straight yesterday. My husband forced me to have a very serious conversation with him about everything yesterday morning, and I know things need to change. For the sake of my health and my marriage, they must change. I confided in my acupuncturist today about a lot of it (she is just so absolutely great) and she recommended a counselor/therapist here in town that I’m calling today at 4pm. I’m petrified to take this next step, but I know I need to.
Please wish me luck crawling out of this dark hole I’ve dug for myself. 🙁