CD1 – On to Bigger & Better (more expensive) Things

Well, I didn’t have much hope because this doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen “naturally” for us, but it’s official today – no surprise BFP just before we take the step to talk to an RE on the 26th.

My temps were all over the place this past cycle. I’m not sure if that’s because I was traveling so much or what. Bizarre. I ovulated CD25 and had an 11 day LP, so it was a 36 day cycle. That’s pretty typical for me (and still outside the realm considered “normal” unfortunately). Of the seven cycles I’ve had that were kind of normal, I ovulated between CD19-30, had LPs of 11-13 days, and had cycle lengths of 30-42 days.
In 18 months of TTC, I’ve only had 11 cycles.
Of 11 cycles, I’ve only ovulated in 8 of them. 
Of 8 ovulations, I’ve had 8 BFNs. 
It’s definitely time to figure out why my body can’t get pregnant. We’re timing everything well, doing everything we can, and still not a single BFP in 18 months. It’s so incredibly frustrating. I’m so tired of trying…and crying.

SO, the plan going forward is this:
On Wednesday the 26th I’m going to have my initial phone consult with a RE from CCRM (Dr. Surrey). Everything I’ve read and researched says that he and Dr. Schoolcraft are the absolute best. I’m excited about this. ๐Ÿ™‚ The phone consult will cost us around $250 if I remember right. Totally worth it at this point – and definitely the cheapest part of this whole process since absolutely no diagnostic work or treatment is covered through our insurance. Have I mentioned that I hate insurance?
After we’ve gone over everything with the RE, he’ll let us know when he wants us to come up for testing. I was told they’ll want CD3 bloodwork and a full workup between CD5-13 (scared about the OOP cost of this, but what can you do – this is when they’d do an HSG, etc). The problem with this is that I’ll already be CD10 when I do my initial consult, so I’ll probably have to wait until the following CD3 to start all the testing. My husband leaves for ND for work on my CD15 and will be gone until my CD30…so this is basically a blown cycle since I ovulate between CD19-30. *sigh*
Also, his work stuff has gotten changed up, so it’s going to be 14 days on, 14 days off, repeat. It’s great that he’ll be home more, but that also means that depending on if I have a 30 or 42 day cycle, he could CONSISTENTLY be gone during O time. @#$^&%*(@%
I hope he gets a job around here soon so we can both pay the mortgage AND work on getting knocked up. This either/or shit sucks ass.
So that was my morning. How’s yours? ๐Ÿ˜‰


  1. my insurance wont cover IF either but they did cover all the testing because I was diagnosed with PCOS. maybe your insurance will cover that?

  2. Sorry to hear you didn't get your surprise BFP! I have PCOS too, and sometimes it seems nearly impossible to conceive without IVF! It's so frustrating! Glad you are going to see Dr.Schoolcraft, I've heard great things. We chose to go to Dr.Bush at Conceptions…a bit cheaper and still an EXCELLENT RE! I'll continue to follow your journey!

  3. UGH. I was still holding out hope. But timing aside, it sounds like things are on the way up from here. Worst case senario, how far away is he working?It sucks that things will take another month to get going, but what I always tell myself is that, once we have our babies, a few months difference won't matter…(easier said than done, I know)Sorry you've had such a hard morning, which I was there xo

  4. I'm so sorry for the BFN, but I'm excited for you two to get going with an RE and figure out what's going on. It's terrible that this is all out of pocket though and your husband is working so far away.

  5. I'm so glad its time to step up the game and get into an RE that comes highly recommended. I know the OOP costs are high but in the long run, it will all be worth it. Especially if its something simple to fix (and cheap!) Fingers crossed for a solid phone consult and next steps…

  6. @Niki – PCOS is still IF related, and they won't cover anything relating to IF. Also, we tried to switch insurances, and since we've tried Clomid, I'm now considered at a pre-existing condition of "high risk" for multiples, so I will be turned down by EVERY insurance until I have a healthy full-term singleton delivery. @#*(%&(@Amanda – Charlie is going to be 900 miles (1,500 KM) away working on a rig with a bunch of guys. No chance of seeing him while he's up there… ๐Ÿ™

  7. Crappy that you didn't get your BFP today. I'm a little worried about you starting up with an RE and possibly not being able to follow through each month with your husband's work schedule. It sounds like you are ready to move forward full force with the RE, but I hope you don't get discouraged if schedules don't work out for a while. I do believe stress accounts for some of IF issues – I know, don't shoot me for saying that. Just don't be hard on yourself. I wish you all the luck in the world and hope everything goes well for you!!!

  8. Oh man babe, I am so sorry. I hope that everything works out for him to be home when you O. I know you're getting so tired of this. Just remember your quote "we don't give up and quit".

  9. I think when I first started following your blog, you were having much longer cycles, so maybe ovulating on CD 25 is some progress? And an 11-day LP is not bad, either. I have a feeling your body's just a little out of whack and still needs some fine-tuning, but that you don't have any major issues. I look forward to hearing how the phone consult goes!

  10. Josey-I hope for you that your phone consult makes you feel even more comfortable with your new RE. Sounds like you already have a good feeling about it! My heart aches for you to hear that you are tired of trying and of crying (totally understand) – I am proud of you though for allowing yourself to feel what you feel (although it is not fun!) Sometimes we can surprise ourselves when we learn how much we can put up with – even though it certainly isn't fair. Sending hugs to you today!

  11. Hoping the phone consult brings you lots of hope and good things!! Hopefully your DH can find something around you guys so that ttc is a little less stressful from that aspect.

  12. I'm sorry this cycle was shit. I know you must be dissapointed. I can't wait to hear about your phone consult. You have a plan (which is so exciting)! Hang in

  13. Oh man, I hear you! I've been TTC for almost 2 years, and only had 16 cycles! Ooof!The good thing is that there is a clear shift in your temps, which is awesome!! I hope your RE is as awesome as mine has been!Julia @

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