Phew. It’s pretty surreal to think that even if I go to 42 full weeks (oh please God, no – I sure liked the 38w timeline last time), I am officially half way done with this pregnancy…my last pregnancy.
It’s a bittersweet feeling as a person who doesn’t especially like being pregnant, as I’m finally in that sweet spot of pregnancy where you feel pretty good, you look pregnant instead of fat but can still breath and move with relative ease, the heartburn and fatigue and such are there but not debilitating…and you get the huge benefit of feeling the baby starting to kick & punch and move before anyone else gets to feel it. It’s becoming real to me that this little person growing inside of me will be in my arms before I know it. Every day I think about how crazy it is that I’m even getting to experience this a second time, and although I’m not a huge fan of being pregnant, I am a huge fan of the little human that is a result of the process, so I know it’s all worth it in the end.
Also, for some reason I’ve come across a lot of late-term baby loss blogs lately (2nd & 3rd tri), and WHOOO-BOY, do I have to just click away as fast as possible. I know how rare it is, but it scares the hell out of me if I think about it too much. I’m trying to stay in the blissfully happy and expectant frame of mind that all is going to turn out well with a healthy little boy in my arms, preferably sometime between December 18 – January 22. You hear that little man? Please stay put for another 16-21 weeks growing big & strong & healthy!
I had my monthly midwife check-up yesterday and everything is going well. I’m getting to that point where I need to make decisions about what tests I want to do/opt out of for the rest of this pregnancy & the kiddo’s first days of life, which feels pretty darn crazy if i’m being honest! Whether or not to get the prenatal Rhogam shot (I’m RH-), whether or not to do the gestational diabetes test, and whether or not to do the GBS test are the three things that I need to decide ASAP. The newborn procedures for the baby I’m pretty educated on and already have decisions made on, but some of this stuff affecting me I just never researched last time b/c it was presented as being something one just did. At any rate, it’s a crazy feeling to be making decisions like this again. Exciting though!