Well, I meant to write this post earlier this week, but I didn’t…probably because it sucks to check in and admit you haven’t done a damn thing differently in the past month.
Here’s the deal – I worked really hard during my pregnancy to be fit & healthy. I gained 20# by 40w4d and felt strong and healthy during my birthing time. I weighed 168.5# just 12 hours after giving birth to Harv (so I lost about 13# almost immediately with a 9#5oz baby + placenta, blood, fluid, etc). I was down to my BFP weight (161#) by 2 weeks postpartum and feeling great about things. I was super flabby of course, but at least the pregnancy weight was off. I maintained within a couple pounds of that weight for the first couple of months, but then my SIL died, and I honestly completely crapped out on food & exercise.
January 12: 181.2#
January 15: 166.5#
February 12: 163.9#
March 12: 162.3#
April 12: 167.0#
May 12: 168.3#
The dotted line is my BFP weight, the first dip is during the worst of my morning sickness, the big drop is obviously postpartum, and the rise is when Jaime died.
So there ya go… On Monday I was up to basically the same weight I was at 12 hours postpartum, and that SUCKED to see on the scale. For reference, I’m 5’8″ and medium build. At 170# I’m definitely overweight and unhealthy, at 160# I feel okay but chunky, at a toned 150# I feel pretty great (this was my fairly easy to maintain weight in my 20s), and at 140# I’d be super fit and healthy.
Honestly, I don’t care if I’m ever at 140#, but I would LOVE to get back to 150# where I feel good about myself and know that it’s a reflection of me making healthy food choices and moving my body. I need to do this – for me and for my children. I don’t want to cut years off of my life and my time with them because I can’t get a hold on what I put in my body.
This morning I was at 165.8# – so down 2.5# after just 2.5 days of tracking my food on MFP. Obviously I had plenty of bloat going on. Right now I am seriously struggling to find time to workout with 2 kids and working full time, so I need to set more reasonable short term goals for myself to get back into the swing of things.
Goals for this month:
- Track my food in MFP every day and stay within the allowed limits (I have it set at a 0.5# loss per week & it syncs with my FitBit)
- Do some sort of workouts on both Saturday & Sunday when I have Charlie around to help with the kids
That’s it. Short and sweet. Let’s do this.
I have done NOTHING to help lose the baby weight. It kind of just went away with Simon. But here I am at 141# 14ish weeks pp and exactly the same as I was at 3 weeks pp. Part of it is that in my head I look great (as said on IG) then I see a full body pic and want to hide. 135 is my highest I feel ok weight and I really need to be below 130 to feel good. But your so right that it’s not about the number so much as feeling healthy. I like your plan to start small. It’s time to try it – maybe some sort of actual exercise twice a week and replacing chocolate with fruit for my mid day snack.
Yep, it’s crazy to me how different I look in my head vs. a full length photo of me. Oops. :\
Start small..better to make small progress in the right direction instead of slowly slipping the wrong way..
I have a fitness post brewing in my head, too. I just got a FitBit! Thank you for your help with the decision. You are incredibly dedicated to your health and had a very reasonable excuse to fall off track for a bit. I know you’ll get back closer to where you want in no time.
Ooh – Fitbit friend me lady!
I cant figure out how 🙁
Just starting the MFP tracking again is huge! I gained 7 lbs since February because, well, sh*t sucks right now and it’s really easy to let the diet go. I’ve stabilized (read: not lost) and for now that has to be good enough. What I’m getting at is be gentle with yourself. Make the good choices when you can and try really hard not to berate yourself when you cave. ((hugs))
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