Rocketships to Heaven

The last few weeks have kicked my ass. I just finished my 3rd week of trying to do 80 hours of work in half the time (it’s impossible, by the way), and I’m floundering. My coworker (and good friend) had her baby 3 weeks ago, and during her 8 week maternity leave, I’m covering her job (my old job) and trying to keep my head afloat on my relatively new job.

I’m barely treading water.

Basically, I’m fucked.

Beyond that, I have no time to blog. And that makes me SUPER sad.

Now it’s 8pm on a Friday night, and Charlie is asleep because he got up at 2am to drive to Denver and back (600 miles!) to pick up a new truck since his work truck recently shit the bed (DAMMIT). My best friend & normal drinking partner is 8w pregnant (yay!) so I’m drinking my 4th beer alone, the kids are asleep so I should probably go to sleep, but all I want to do is catch up on your lives and to share about mine lately.


Yesterday morning, my mother-in-law texted me this…and I cried…


Stella’s imagination has taken off lately, and with that has come a lot of talk about Jaime. It’s awesome, and it’s sad. It makes me so happy that she still talks about Jaime, but it kills me that she even needs to think up adventures like this. I mean, WHAT THE FUCK?

Tonight I got home from work after a really long day, and this is the new game Stella came up with to play with Harvey… jumping in the rocket ship to visit Auntie Jaime in heaven so they could give her big hugs. I mean, it’s a heart breaker, right?



  1. mcmissis · · Reply

    Wow, sounds like a terribly busy time for you right now! I’ve been wondering where you were 🙂 And yeah, the Jaime rocketship couldn’t be more heartbreaking and sweet (and clever!) 🙁

  2. Sweet smart girl!
    I can’t believe your MIL didn’t cry on the spot.
    I hope your work gets easier!

    1. She definitely did!

  3. So sweet and yes, a heart breaker too.

    I hope that your co-worker’s maternity leave goes by fast (for you!) so that things aren’t as hectic.
    (And my #Priorities would have been exactly the same as yours in your situation)

  4. Isn’t imagination amazing? What a sweet little girl you have.

    Sorry to hear things are so nutty right now. You totally deserve some beers and blogging! Hang in there!

  5. I hear you. I am crazy busy at work as well think the stress is making me sick have a cold can’t shack. All of this makes me emotional. I read this an cried happy sad cry. So great Stella is remembering Jamie and wants her to be around for hugs I hope that lasts along time for her. Hope the rest of the 8 weeks goes fast it will I am sure. I am hanging out for Christmas break and to lie around I the sunshine.

  6. What a sweet, smart girl!

    I’m sorry life is so hectic right now. No fun at all.

  7. Gah! I’m reading you when you post but I don’t comment as much. I wish j could give you a hug! When my buddy passed a few years ago my oldest started talking about ghosts. I always felt the two were connected and I thought even though it was comforting it reopened the wounds of grief.

  8. Basically, I’m fucked. I LOVE IT! Sorry girl, things get better I hear from everyone 🙂

  9. what a sweet, smart girl, but yes, totally, totally heartbreaking.

    I’m so sorry things are so rough at work for you right now, ugh! it sounds awful.

  10. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now. How long will your co-worker be on leave? I think it is so sweet that Stella talks about Jaime so much – it just goes to show how close the two of them were. Harvey is lucky to have his big sister to take him on rides to visit their Aunt (and hear stories about her).

    1. Just 8 weeks, but that feels like an eternity at this point!

  11. Gosh, that sounds like a lot of work and so hectic! Uggg, sorry about that.. hoping things calm down soon. But gosh yes, this is just so sweet. I LOVE seeing imagination burst at this age. Lids comes up with such amazing stories and games. I am blown away daily. And to see Stella using that imagination to visit Jaime?! Just perfect. What a sweet little girl.

  12. cue tears. what a sweet girl you have.

  13. kaseypowers · · Reply

    This made me cry. But it is sweet to see how the littles process grief.

  14. How heart-breakingly sweet!

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