And Then You Feel Like Shit

So. Yesterday. Everything I wrote? I still feel. I’m still struggling. I’m still working on being a=parent who has more patience with her children and a deeper well of love and understanding to draw from when things are tough. Thank you SO much to everyone who has so respectfully weighed in with ideas and hope and if nothing else, commiseration. It means a lot to me.

BUT, when you child face plants off the couch into the (non-burning) gas stove and crashes on his eye and the resulting laceration bleeds like crazy so you don’t even know where the blood is coming from? Then you feel like a shitty parent for doing anything but cuddling and loving and soothing your child. He is still my baby after all.

I get that kids need boundaries and guidance and structure. But damn, when your baby hurts? Your heart hurts. That is all.

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11 comments

  1. Oh my gosh, poor kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Poor Mom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  2. It does hurt when your kids are hurt. I know this too well with Bryson (Matthew is VERY careful!) and I find it hurts the most when I was distracted when I should have been more attentive. When you’re down a parent, it’s really hard to keep your eyes in them all the time, especially when you just need a moment here and there for your sanity.

    He’s fine, it looks worse than it is, and you’re a great mom. Remember that!

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    1. Right? I was 10′ away just plugging my phone in after Facetiming with Charlie, and I heard the crash and looked up and thought Oh SHIT.

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  3. Oh my gosh, poor little boo! Hugs for you both.

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  4. Those pictures are so sad 😦 I would’ve panicked. I’m glad you work at a dr office and was able to keep your cool. When I first read it yesterday, I thought you meant your kitchen stove and couldn’t for the life of me figure out why your couch was so close to it. Then I showed it to McMister, and he said, “What? Why do they have such a low stove???” Hahaha we’re not too quick round these parts πŸ™‚ As for the rest of the post, SO many times the kids have actually gotten hurt immediately after getting in trouble, and then I feel so conflicted and upset 😦

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  5. Yesterday He-Beat drove off the couch, missed the pile of pillows he was aiming for. The sickening sound of the smack left me wanting to cry and vomit all at once.

    This shit happens. But it’s so hard to witness and live through.

    Agreeing with Courtney. You’re an excellent mother. Harvey just has some battle wounds. But the sign that you’re doing awesome is that he knows he can turn to you to help him through the pain and scary reality. Poor kid. It looks like that hurt.

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  6. Oh you poor little angel πŸ˜₯πŸ˜₯πŸ˜₯

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  7. Oh No. This is awful. Don’t eye area bleed so much! Toby has a scare from doing this a 10mths. Hope he heals fast. With all the ups and downs remember you are still a good Mama.

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  8. Did this need any sutures? Children’s heads bleed like a mofo. We learned that the hard way when my 3yo was hit in the head by a baseball bat swung by his 6yo cousin. I honestly thought he had been shot based on the gaping wound and amount of blood. He was soaked in blood literally from head to toe – his socks and shoes had blood in them.

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  9. I think you are a rock star for handling it the way you did. I would have passed out by the sight of all the blood. But yes, my mama heart hurts just looking at these pictures.

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  10. Poor sweet guy!!!! But he’ll be fine. They’re made of rubber, I swear.

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