Well, I meant to write this post earlier this week, but I didn’t…probably because it sucks to check in and admit you haven’t done a damn thing differently in the past month.
Here’s the deal – I worked really hard during my pregnancy to be fit & healthy. I gained 20# by 40w4d and felt strong and healthy during my birthing time. I weighed 168.5# just 12 hours after giving birth to Harv (so I lost about 13# almost immediately with a 9#5oz baby + placenta, blood, fluid, etc). I was down to my BFP weight (161#) by 2 weeks postpartum and feeling great about things. I was super flabby of course, but at least the pregnancy weight was off. I maintained within a couple pounds of that weight for the first couple of months, but then my SIL died, and I honestly completely crapped out on food & exercise.
January 12: 181.2#
January 15: 166.5#
February 12: 163.9#
March 12: 162.3#
April 12: 167.0#
May 12: 168.3#
So there ya go… On Monday I was up to basically the same weight I was at 12 hours postpartum, and that SUCKED to see on the scale. For reference, I’m 5’8″ and medium build. At 170# I’m definitely overweight and unhealthy, at 160# I feel okay but chunky, at a toned 150# I feel pretty great (this was my fairly easy to maintain weight in my 20s), and at 140# I’d be super fit and healthy.
Honestly, I don’t care if I’m ever at 140#, but I would LOVE to get back to 150# where I feel good about myself and know that it’s a reflection of me making healthy food choices and moving my body. I need to do this – for me and for my children. I don’t want to cut years off of my life and my time with them because I can’t get a hold on what I put in my body.
This morning I was at 165.8# – so down 2.5# after just 2.5 days of tracking my food on MFP. Obviously I had plenty of bloat going on. Right now I am seriously struggling to find time to workout with 2 kids and working full time, so I need to set more reasonable short term goals for myself to get back into the swing of things.
Goals for this month:
- Track my food in MFP every day and stay within the allowed limits (I have it set at a 0.5# loss per week & it syncs with my FitBit)
- Do some sort of workouts on both Saturday & Sunday when I have Charlie around to help with the kids
That’s it. Short and sweet. Let’s do this.