Well, I’m sorry that all of my posts lately are so whiny and “woe is me,” but for real dudes, I am barely hanging in there. Last weekend was absolutely horrid. I’m talking puking non stop from 3pm-midnight on Saturday kind of horrid. I keep losing weight and I feel like the dirty piece of bubblegum on the bottom of your shoe – trying to stick in there and be somewhat effective, but really just wanting to give up and let go because I feel like such a dirty piece of crap. I’m a mess, y’all.
Nana and Papa took Stella again from Saturday afternoon – Monday morning so that I could try to get some rest. I’m trying not to feel like a failure at everything right now, but it’s not going so well…
Here’s what my bedside looked like this morning:
I’m at work right now, but I think I’m going home in a bit here. I just want to curl up in a ball and die. I don’t know how the hell people do this their entire pregnancies. I’m just praying that I’m feeling better soon, but in the meantime I’m just not sure how to keep existing.
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