Last week I laid on my couch, relaxing deep into my first self-hypnosis session of HypnoBabies for this pregnancy, and I was suddenly struck by this feeling of being under pressure.
It’s an odd feeling, because I felt so calm & confident going into my first birth, and I had such a good experience… but now I’m realizing that I feel like I need to be even better and handle things perfectly to somehow prove to my husband and to others (WHY do I care what others think?) that home birth was a good idea, and that I’m not whacko for having faith in a self-hypnosis program to help me throughout my birthing time.
I truly do believe in the power of the mind (hence the HypnoBabies) and the safety of home birth, so I really don’t know why I’m doing this to myself. I’m trying hard to get out of this head space, but it’s where I am, and I figured I should document both the positive side and the worrisome side of this pregnancy.
In the meantime, I’m going to make a point of listening to my HypnoBabies positive affirmations more often. My body is made to do this. Things are progressing as they should. I will birth in comfort and peace.